Recent Adventures!

Boomer and I went to a handful of parks on our 4 day weekend. We visited Purity and finished up our move out of the old apartment. She let me use her garage for storage. We walked around the park near her house and enjoyed watching a softball game. Boomer and I also went to the Asylum near my house a few times already. Purity joined us once for a hike in the Glen Trails, and we also went back yesterday. Today we went to Dorchester park, which was super fun! I plan on taking her back up there for a longer hike along the water, and to perhaps picnic :). I work the next 2 nights, but I can't help but think I'll enjoy that familarity since moving around has had me feeling strange and out of sorts. I've staretd to actuallt work on my personal blog, which feels great. I'm happy how much I've learned and retained about html and css. I need to work on more JS projects, but I also have other projects to work on. My goal soon is to create a downloadable application/game and understand the process of copiling(?) or finalizing(?) a program to a user instead of just making programs in visual studio if that makes any sense. Obviously I am new to whatever the fuck I am trying to explain with 0 knowledge. I will check in soon, perhaps with a more improved setup to personal entries. See you in the void.

Dorchester Park pt. 2:

6/03/2025

The last few days I have been in a haze. Work has been mostly okay, I'm getting average tips and there haven't been too many crazy incidents. I was supposed to have tomorrow off, but I picked up a shift. I'm hoping next week I can get Friday off when my sister is in town, so I'll at least have one night off that she's in town. Dorchester park was fun today, Boomer has really been enjoying spending lots of time outside. I had a bit of a mental break last night. I stayed up late watching Catching Fire, and didn't fall asleep until 5am. I don't necessarily like where my head is at right now. I think I was distracted with school, work, moving, graduating, and now that I am in a new place, I feel like I'm lagging or something. All of my old repetitive intrusive thoughts are coming back to me. I know I need to push myself into something else to feel good again, to work towards something. My future seems so unknown. Do I save money for a place around here? Am I even qualified to apply for jobs in my desired field? Is that what I want right now?

I am upset. I wanted to travel with Boomer and take her to see the world. But I get so lost in small hypotheticals and I lose my mind. I think until it all feels impossible. It was nice to clear my head at the park. To look at the hills across the water and think about those I've known and loved in the past. To think about who I want to be, what I'd like to do for Boomer. I just want to feel present. I catch glimpses of it every now and then. The feeling of being in my body, and experiencing everything around me at once. Now I am going off my rocker. I should go shower. Probably gonna stay up (hopefully not as late) watching MockingJay pt. 1, Goodnight! <3